#personal #log 213 i continue to overthink it seems #im just #im crying rn #i dont know #i dont know what im feeling #what am i feeling #is it anything #am  ireally feeling anything #i took even a hot shwoer not too long ago and i still feel #i dont know #i dont know #godim just sitting here and overthinking and viewing myself #i wanna cut open my stomach #i wanna literally cut down my thighs #im thinking someone honestly could stab me #and id end up forgiving them easily #i dont fight back i never will i never have #constantly needing someone to fucking hold my hand #cus im such a weak and pathetic baby #even physically #i mcrying again i should sleep soon